Heart Of Glass

   It was one of those days where you wake up and you don't know where to begin..
It began with two bad dreams ..
Two bad dreams drained me from inside ..
U know that lonely feeling? when you can't find the strength?
This is exactly what happened to me ...
Moved like a zombie , doing everything i should do just wanna come back home ..
Just wanna run to my coccon and close the door behind ...
Only to be hit by new loss...
My friend removed my friend .. just erased him from her life ..
U know that option where you click the damn botton , and next thing the person you have clicked was gone ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
harsh , harsh ...
People doing it all the time .. click , you are gone !
And this coccon suddenly is so tight and dark ..
I wanna go home !
Where's home? it is so so faraway !
Strikes me how life has become so indifferent and difficult ..
Does people know that hearts are made of glasses?
And when you crack a piece , it never heals ..and those broken hearts keep going on in life half broken , half alive..
and then if you make a zoom to one of those hearts ..
U'll find narrow deep holes .. this is pain ..
Hearts are made of glasses so why we pretend it's made of steel?
Hearts are made of glasses then why we can't see?
Why we think that the others are disposable? we need eachothers..
We need to feel the warmth of other's breath..
We are bundle of senses ,  we are not steel .........
               Someone dear told me today , you keep fighting fighting fighting for what?
....... U know what? ................... I'll stop .

what do guys want exactly??? homa 3awzeen eh broo7 mamethom?

     OK , what do they really want? y3ny lma nb2a kwaiseen w banat 7alal ydona 3la afana , w lma netml3an w n2leb 3alehom y3yato w y2olo 2ool lel zaman erga3 wenaby ...
Guys , those following stories happened bgd to some of my closest friends , and i'm pissed off , because i know how it hurts to lose belief , bgd i'll tell you those stories and you judge for yourselves because elmawdo3 b2a ooooover bgd oooover...
1- one of my friends was in relationship with a guy for three years over net ( ygta3 el net wel neteeta welly ynateto 3aleh) , anyway they saw eachothers via webcam and those faksa technological fashla means ( because the guy was abroad , w dee moshkila tanya)... anyway elwad nezel w hyt2ablo .. w et2ablo w reg3t 3la betha happy only to be shocked in the morning by an msn men roo7 mamto sayin( sorry i can't continue) and when she confronted him WHY ya brad pitt 3asrak w awanak he said (asl your design w structure m3agabonesh )....YA EBN ELLLL........ (kol el shataym).. design w structure? bgd 3eb a2ol ele nefsy feh ..
2- my closest friend was in love with a guy , hwa kman friend for me .. elbet bt7bo w mfehash 7aga tet3ayb w hwa !!! 2erd , monkey w shwaya yb2a on w b3den off .. eh yala? mt3mlk 2afla w estrgl keda .. shwaya y2oly klam w yro7 y2ol klam tany l nas tanya w  y2olha hya klam talet ...hwa feh eh yad? bgd el regala gralha eh? w leh b2o ashba7 keda?
Allah yr7amak yaaaa, ya meen? wallahy ma3arfa.
3- wad 3shan y5la3 min bent kan by7bha 2alha 3ando influenza el 5anazeer belsala 3al sala .. w msh hy2dar ydamrlaha her furure so lazem ynse7eb min 7ayatha .. welbet galha nervous breakdown w kanet btmoot because she thought en el 7eela da7a b 7bo 3shan y7afez 3la 7ayatha , only to discover b3d yumen en m2soof el ra2ba tele3 sharm m3a s7abo w sa7eb bet tanya w kan 3awez y5la3 w bas.
                just imagine .............................................
hwa feh eh? leh b2eto keda ya regalaaa?
y3ny el mawdo3 hormonat wala bee2a wala genat werasya ? 2ololna ymkin neb3ed 3anko w nraya7ko ... the worset thing is when you lose belief and trust .. la2 w y3ezo awi awi yfkeso in the time of need ..
   Once upon a time there was a MAN , keeps his words , respects his woman , protects his home , he was like a stone .. strong and solid .. he remained like that till he died  with his woman beside him so content. She lived on his memory .. coz he was a man..
                            dee kanet kesa 5yalya msh wake3ya ...
                            elwake3 hwa kol ele kan abl el kessa dee.

                                                ya regala  !!

True Colours !

And grey becomes her .....
behind blue there is always grey ,
crawling like a big ghost ,
engulfing all green and blue ,
And she remembers when she was green ,
,O, spring .. spring
and she was jumping in the air ,
catching a rainbow , waving a free hand to the sun,
Spring was only for a little wink ...
Then she become blue ...
Blue is warm , long and so true ,
she became herself in blue ,
Then suddenly , grey , ....
Grey is cruel , strong and deep ,
How could she escape??
Life just stepaside when grey comes in way ...
........................................................
And she closed her eyes , finally .. Peace ..
And she drawned in the deep endless silence ..
And she smiled ...
Silence is white !