hello universe ..........
me again after a long time , feeling lonely up to my neck 
all is blurred , what i want i can't get
and what i have is already i don't want 
and between what i have and what i want a huge gap of loneliness..
expected ! as you can't have it all , but sometimes they do say i have it all, 
depends entirely on what you really think of yourself and everybody around,
like for instance if you have a nose and you think it's big while everybody around you say it's good,
it's pretty , still what you think is what matters ,
satisfaction??? maybe later when i'm out of this mood.