Bad Day !

It was a baaaad day , sometimes i just wake up feeling im not good ... Usually it's because you are not here anymore , and it's hard , hard to cope with life without you , and you know what?? The hardest is that i can't reach the forever
You are in the forever . and i'm stuck here alone in this time .
Everyday i wake up , stay in bed , thinking about you , then feeling angry of you, remembering all details, words, and i hate you , then feeling love you and swing between hate and love till i leave my bed ........... then i go to work and i meet people i know , i laugh , i joke and talk and do all what i have to do and you are still there , in the background of all day , then i find my mind so loaded of images of you, words to you and i do nothing , i write nothing , i say nothing to noone till i fell asleep like a long coma only to wake up again and find that you are not here.....
And i hate every minute i have to live .
This is my perfect everyday .