A man in love ..love brings identity , love applies meanings .
Caruso within horizon , a voice carried through winds ..
( he saw the lights out on the sea
he thought of all the nights behind
they were only the lampare
the white wake of a stern)
and from far , in his mind only her image emerges , through dreams , only one grey giant cell
He is a man in love .. searching for pearls to his love
in love ..letters are too precious to waste
BUT was he loved??
( he felt the pain in the music
he stood up by the piano
but when he saw the moon
death was also sweet to him
he looked into her eyes
two eyes as green as the sea
then suddenly he felt tears
and he believed he was fell into the sea).
Once he was loved he believes and again he felt that sweet pain when you jump into your brain
the voice of the song is fading away , leaving a sweet taste on the tips of his tongue
he is alone but not lonely
he is away but so close
he is here and there
between the sense and the feeling
he went into oblivion again , half awake
(i love you
so much as you know
it is like a chain now
that heats up my blood
inside the veins you know)
again , it's his blood that speaks
it's beyond his bones
but have you ever been happy shedding your blood for your love?
he was in love
he was loved.
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
Monday, August 23, 2010
Heart Of Glass
It was one of those days where you wake up and you don't know where to begin..
It began with two bad dreams ..
Two bad dreams drained me from inside ..
U know that lonely feeling? when you can't find the strength?
This is exactly what happened to me ...
Moved like a zombie , doing everything i should do just wanna come back home ..
Just wanna run to my coccon and close the door behind ...
Only to be hit by new loss...
My friend removed my friend .. just erased him from her life ..
U know that option where you click the damn botton , and next thing the person you have clicked was gone ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
harsh , harsh ...
People doing it all the time .. click , you are gone !
And this coccon suddenly is so tight and dark ..
I wanna go home !
Where's home? it is so so faraway !
Strikes me how life has become so indifferent and difficult ..
Does people know that hearts are made of glasses?
And when you crack a piece , it never heals ..and those broken hearts keep going on in life half broken , half alive..
and then if you make a zoom to one of those hearts ..
U'll find narrow deep holes .. this is pain ..
Hearts are made of glasses so why we pretend it's made of steel?
Hearts are made of glasses then why we can't see?
Why we think that the others are disposable? we need eachothers..
We need to feel the warmth of other's breath..
We are bundle of senses , we are not steel .........
Someone dear told me today , you keep fighting fighting fighting for what?
....... U know what? ................... I'll stop .
It began with two bad dreams ..
Two bad dreams drained me from inside ..
U know that lonely feeling? when you can't find the strength?
This is exactly what happened to me ...
Moved like a zombie , doing everything i should do just wanna come back home ..
Just wanna run to my coccon and close the door behind ...
Only to be hit by new loss...
My friend removed my friend .. just erased him from her life ..
U know that option where you click the damn botton , and next thing the person you have clicked was gone ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
harsh , harsh ...
People doing it all the time .. click , you are gone !
And this coccon suddenly is so tight and dark ..
I wanna go home !
Where's home? it is so so faraway !
Strikes me how life has become so indifferent and difficult ..
Does people know that hearts are made of glasses?
And when you crack a piece , it never heals ..and those broken hearts keep going on in life half broken , half alive..
and then if you make a zoom to one of those hearts ..
U'll find narrow deep holes .. this is pain ..
Hearts are made of glasses so why we pretend it's made of steel?
Hearts are made of glasses then why we can't see?
Why we think that the others are disposable? we need eachothers..
We need to feel the warmth of other's breath..
We are bundle of senses , we are not steel .........
Someone dear told me today , you keep fighting fighting fighting for what?
....... U know what? ................... I'll stop .
Sunday, August 15, 2010
what do guys want exactly??? homa 3awzeen eh broo7 mamethom?
OK , what do they really want? y3ny lma nb2a kwaiseen w banat 7alal ydona 3la afana , w lma netml3an w n2leb 3alehom y3yato w y2olo 2ool lel zaman erga3 wenaby ...
Guys , those following stories happened bgd to some of my closest friends , and i'm pissed off , because i know how it hurts to lose belief , bgd i'll tell you those stories and you judge for yourselves because elmawdo3 b2a ooooover bgd oooover...
1- one of my friends was in relationship with a guy for three years over net ( ygta3 el net wel neteeta welly ynateto 3aleh) , anyway they saw eachothers via webcam and those faksa technological fashla means ( because the guy was abroad , w dee moshkila tanya)... anyway elwad nezel w hyt2ablo .. w et2ablo w reg3t 3la betha happy only to be shocked in the morning by an msn men roo7 mamto sayin( sorry i can't continue) and when she confronted him WHY ya brad pitt 3asrak w awanak he said (asl your design w structure m3agabonesh )....YA EBN ELLLL........ (kol el shataym).. design w structure? bgd 3eb a2ol ele nefsy feh ..
2- my closest friend was in love with a guy , hwa kman friend for me .. elbet bt7bo w mfehash 7aga tet3ayb w hwa !!! 2erd , monkey w shwaya yb2a on w b3den off .. eh yala? mt3mlk 2afla w estrgl keda .. shwaya y2oly klam w yro7 y2ol klam tany l nas tanya w y2olha hya klam talet ...hwa feh eh yad? bgd el regala gralha eh? w leh b2o ashba7 keda?
Allah yr7amak yaaaa, ya meen? wallahy ma3arfa.
3- wad 3shan y5la3 min bent kan by7bha 2alha 3ando influenza el 5anazeer belsala 3al sala .. w msh hy2dar ydamrlaha her furure so lazem ynse7eb min 7ayatha .. welbet galha nervous breakdown w kanet btmoot because she thought en el 7eela da7a b 7bo 3shan y7afez 3la 7ayatha , only to discover b3d yumen en m2soof el ra2ba tele3 sharm m3a s7abo w sa7eb bet tanya w kan 3awez y5la3 w bas.
just imagine .............................................
hwa feh eh? leh b2eto keda ya regalaaa?
y3ny el mawdo3 hormonat wala bee2a wala genat werasya ? 2ololna ymkin neb3ed 3anko w nraya7ko ... the worset thing is when you lose belief and trust .. la2 w y3ezo awi awi yfkeso in the time of need ..
Once upon a time there was a MAN , keeps his words , respects his woman , protects his home , he was like a stone .. strong and solid .. he remained like that till he died with his woman beside him so content. She lived on his memory .. coz he was a man..
dee kanet kesa 5yalya msh wake3ya ...
elwake3 hwa kol ele kan abl el kessa dee.
ya regala !!
Guys , those following stories happened bgd to some of my closest friends , and i'm pissed off , because i know how it hurts to lose belief , bgd i'll tell you those stories and you judge for yourselves because elmawdo3 b2a ooooover bgd oooover...
1- one of my friends was in relationship with a guy for three years over net ( ygta3 el net wel neteeta welly ynateto 3aleh) , anyway they saw eachothers via webcam and those faksa technological fashla means ( because the guy was abroad , w dee moshkila tanya)... anyway elwad nezel w hyt2ablo .. w et2ablo w reg3t 3la betha happy only to be shocked in the morning by an msn men roo7 mamto sayin( sorry i can't continue) and when she confronted him WHY ya brad pitt 3asrak w awanak he said (asl your design w structure m3agabonesh )....YA EBN ELLLL........ (kol el shataym).. design w structure? bgd 3eb a2ol ele nefsy feh ..
2- my closest friend was in love with a guy , hwa kman friend for me .. elbet bt7bo w mfehash 7aga tet3ayb w hwa !!! 2erd , monkey w shwaya yb2a on w b3den off .. eh yala? mt3mlk 2afla w estrgl keda .. shwaya y2oly klam w yro7 y2ol klam tany l nas tanya w y2olha hya klam talet ...hwa feh eh yad? bgd el regala gralha eh? w leh b2o ashba7 keda?
Allah yr7amak yaaaa, ya meen? wallahy ma3arfa.
3- wad 3shan y5la3 min bent kan by7bha 2alha 3ando influenza el 5anazeer belsala 3al sala .. w msh hy2dar ydamrlaha her furure so lazem ynse7eb min 7ayatha .. welbet galha nervous breakdown w kanet btmoot because she thought en el 7eela da7a b 7bo 3shan y7afez 3la 7ayatha , only to discover b3d yumen en m2soof el ra2ba tele3 sharm m3a s7abo w sa7eb bet tanya w kan 3awez y5la3 w bas.
just imagine .............................................
hwa feh eh? leh b2eto keda ya regalaaa?
y3ny el mawdo3 hormonat wala bee2a wala genat werasya ? 2ololna ymkin neb3ed 3anko w nraya7ko ... the worset thing is when you lose belief and trust .. la2 w y3ezo awi awi yfkeso in the time of need ..
Once upon a time there was a MAN , keeps his words , respects his woman , protects his home , he was like a stone .. strong and solid .. he remained like that till he died with his woman beside him so content. She lived on his memory .. coz he was a man..
dee kanet kesa 5yalya msh wake3ya ...
elwake3 hwa kol ele kan abl el kessa dee.
ya regala !!
Monday, August 2, 2010
True Colours !
And grey becomes her .....
behind blue there is always grey ,
crawling like a big ghost ,
engulfing all green and blue ,
And she remembers when she was green ,
,O, spring .. spring
and she was jumping in the air ,
catching a rainbow , waving a free hand to the sun,
Spring was only for a little wink ...
Then she become blue ...
Blue is warm , long and so true ,
she became herself in blue ,
Then suddenly , grey , ....
Grey is cruel , strong and deep ,
How could she escape??
Life just stepaside when grey comes in way ...
........................................................
And she closed her eyes , finally .. Peace ..
And she drawned in the deep endless silence ..
And she smiled ...
Silence is white !
behind blue there is always grey ,
crawling like a big ghost ,
engulfing all green and blue ,
And she remembers when she was green ,
,O, spring .. spring
and she was jumping in the air ,
catching a rainbow , waving a free hand to the sun,
Spring was only for a little wink ...
Then she become blue ...
Blue is warm , long and so true ,
she became herself in blue ,
Then suddenly , grey , ....
Grey is cruel , strong and deep ,
How could she escape??
Life just stepaside when grey comes in way ...
........................................................
And she closed her eyes , finally .. Peace ..
And she drawned in the deep endless silence ..
And she smiled ...
Silence is white !
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
please.... Don't disappear!
I miss you mom!
miss you like the aged misses youth,
miss talkin to you
miss dealing with you , when you joke about me
when you search for me and call me
when you miss me..
when you tell me stories and memories from the past
when you show me pictures and things you keep apart
i'm so without you
and i'm so yearning to you
and i'm so incomplete and lonely without you
please please don't fade away , i fear losing the image of you
Don't wanna forget the tone of your voice and the sound of your laugh
i'm so so missing you.
please stay here and here....
in my mind and in my heart.
miss you like the aged misses youth,
miss talkin to you
miss dealing with you , when you joke about me
when you search for me and call me
when you miss me..
when you tell me stories and memories from the past
when you show me pictures and things you keep apart
i'm so without you
and i'm so yearning to you
and i'm so incomplete and lonely without you
please please don't fade away , i fear losing the image of you
Don't wanna forget the tone of your voice and the sound of your laugh
i'm so so missing you.
please stay here and here....
in my mind and in my heart.
Sunday, July 25, 2010
little stories.....
First Story:
Everyday is just like the other , boring ,boring ..
why does he say he loves her when he stays away of her?
he is an adventurer while she is an introvent ..
can love tolerate such difference?
Next time she'll go to Sahara with him, just her, him and the endless peace.
Second Story:
She just can't be faithful to one man .. but men don't understand this
she doesn't care as long as she is smart in moving in between..
she can say yes to someone and no to the other , then switch thoughts.
All is fair as long as she is not caught..
She forgot one thing , her line was open when she was out with the other..
He heard it all !
Third Srory:
He wanna leave her ! timing is the only problem .
and the other problem ? his promise? Crab , promises are meant to be broken ..
But what if she created problems to him? his mother just adores her.
hmmmm,, maybe but she'll come around eventually , he's her son while the other is just a stranger , not blood..
But ... will she keep quite about his small secret?
He should be smart and tolerate her alittle longer, just alittle longer.
Fourth Story:
Death is very true , thats why he hates it ..
Tomorrow might not come with all the hope we live for..
He was telling her last time they met to give him the choice :
just give me a chance to stay with you , live the remaining time ,
i have the right to be with you coz i won't have that right with destiny ..
let me be with you till you fade away.
Fifth Story:
She will buy the hottest swim suit ever and she will forget all the limitations around her!
Pink will be the colour and to dye her hair in black , mmm suits her skin ..
they say that summer brings new love along with blazing sun ..
She closed her eyes with a smile ... we'll see about that.
Everyday is just like the other , boring ,boring ..
why does he say he loves her when he stays away of her?
he is an adventurer while she is an introvent ..
can love tolerate such difference?
Next time she'll go to Sahara with him, just her, him and the endless peace.
Second Story:
She just can't be faithful to one man .. but men don't understand this
she doesn't care as long as she is smart in moving in between..
she can say yes to someone and no to the other , then switch thoughts.
All is fair as long as she is not caught..
She forgot one thing , her line was open when she was out with the other..
He heard it all !
Third Srory:
He wanna leave her ! timing is the only problem .
and the other problem ? his promise? Crab , promises are meant to be broken ..
But what if she created problems to him? his mother just adores her.
hmmmm,, maybe but she'll come around eventually , he's her son while the other is just a stranger , not blood..
But ... will she keep quite about his small secret?
He should be smart and tolerate her alittle longer, just alittle longer.
Fourth Story:
Death is very true , thats why he hates it ..
Tomorrow might not come with all the hope we live for..
He was telling her last time they met to give him the choice :
just give me a chance to stay with you , live the remaining time ,
i have the right to be with you coz i won't have that right with destiny ..
let me be with you till you fade away.
Fifth Story:
She will buy the hottest swim suit ever and she will forget all the limitations around her!
Pink will be the colour and to dye her hair in black , mmm suits her skin ..
they say that summer brings new love along with blazing sun ..
She closed her eyes with a smile ... we'll see about that.
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
To Choose Between Two Deathes ...

I was watching Eclipse , the Twilight saga
and i was hit by few ideas ,,
like why we always have romantic fantasies about vampires?
and why we always portray them as beautiful elegant smooth creatures?
and why we always let them win eventually or at least we leave it open end ?
Remember the movie ( Interview With a Vampire)? where they gathered the three alive hunks of Hollywood then ( Pitt, Cruise, Banderas) in one movie leaving us the poor helpless females imagining ourselves part of this gorgeous creatures?
me , i imagined me a beautiful gurl whome Pitt saw and couldn't resist till he transformed her into an immortal creature like him bla, bla, bla...
But then the idea hit me ! would i stand same face , same voice , same everything ,
nothing changes at all for life? hell , forever? FOREVER? dee teb2a 3esha hbab , even Pitt with all his charm can't stand such test .
I mean come to think of it , if you married a guy and he turned out to be a jerk ( like most men are as we agree ), you will always have this hope that someday hayfyas aw enty tfayasy w ne5las w ahe 3esha ..But to stick on to someone knowing that he will never die and you can't even escape coz if you tried to escape hygebek min afaky men re7tek,,,,
dee tb2a 3esha soda ..
Now back to Bella elle hya habla w msh fahma , obviously she is trapped between two gorgeous hunks Edward the vampire and Jakob the warewolf .. i understand her dilemma since they are both drop dead lookers but to live a dead life the idea makes 3am dahab bta3 el batata looks more hotter coz at least loh ree7a unlike the odourless, tasteless Edward .. now i didn't watch the movie till end yet so i don't know what will be Bella's choice , will it be death naturally or death by living dead beside Edward...
Does love really that powerfull?
We'll see ....
Last thought : Can he stand forever for me?
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